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Archive for February, 2013


FrostedBaby was reading his book to himself today. It went something like this:

[point] “catty!”

[point] “catty!”

[point] “catty!”

[point] “catty!”

[point] “catty!”

[point] “catty!”


17 months, 25 days

While brushing FrostedBaby’s teeth this morning I took a good look at the back of his mouth and I could see his two year molars! I’ve been looking for them for the past while since he’s been having what seem like teething symptoms on and off but hadn’t been able to see anything yet. They’re not in, but I can see the shape of them. I’m not sure if they’re through the gum yet, it was hard to get a really good look, but I don’t think they are. But! Soon! The end might be in sight! Not that it doesn’t take them forever to come in, but if they’re visible then it’s not as long as nothing happening.

And today he’s been much more cheerful and his usual self than he has been lately. There have been some whining and complaining over being told no and the typical toddler-of-this-age stuff, but it’s much more manageable when in general he’s a chipper guy rather than the whining and clinginess on top of the tantrums. (they’re not really tantrums yet, but it’s easier to say than anything else).

He’s decided to be brave and go up the stairs again, and now he’ll go down them as well although he prefers to try to come down face first (because this is less scary? who *is* this daredevil?) and throws a fit when I turn him around and then slides down half of them because he’s kicking his legs in protest. Weirdo.

We went sledding today for the first time. He really enjoyed going down, he liked coming back up (seriously, lugging a 25lb toddler plus a sled up the hill is a great workout; this kid needs to learn how to walk), and he hated everything else. He whined from the time the sled stopped, then threatened to cry when I set him down so I could get up and pick him and the sled up to walk back up the hill. He liked that part because I was holding him, then he’d threaten to cry when I put him down so I could sit properly on the sled, then he’d go from whining to smiling and making happy noises when he was in my lap and laughing on the way down, back to whining again. Lots of work for very little payoff, though the part where we were going downhill was fun for both of us 😛  It will be a lot better once he can walk, although whether he’ll be comfortable enough to not be held constantly by me, I’m not sure. He’s still young, but I hope he’ll learn to really enjoy it. I’m glad I didn’t try to send him down on his own though. I borrowed one of those round sleds from a friend and I’m glad I took that one instead of the baby sled where I wouldn’t have been able to go down with him. We weren’t out very long because the wind was in our faces and I got tired from lugging him around and it wasn’t enough laughing to counteract the whining, but it was fun. I’ve been waiting to go sledding with my kid for a long time and I’m excited for when he’s older and we can go together again. I love sledding.

I want Husband to get snowpants and we should go on a sledding date.

17 months, 22 days

It’s been a while. I’ve had several posts started and then either couldn’t post (or they didn’t post properly after I typed them out) or else they never got finished. I’m reading back on my last post to see what I need to update about. Perhaps I’ll do point form.

– It has been over three weeks since FrostedBaby last nursed and he has not once asked for it, even when we were away at the in-laws’ for the weekend and he was really upset about not being home and refused to sleep and screamed a lot. I was so sure that would be the time he did, but he did not indicate that he wanted it. I thought about offering since I thought it would calm him down, but if his latch was that bad at the end, it would be even worse now so I didn’t. I still don’t really miss it. I do miss parts about it – having something to comfort him with, knowing that if he’s not feeling well and not eating that as long as he’s nursing (which he always did though he wasn’t sick very much while he was still nursing) I didn’t have to worry, etc. I do not miss the actual act of doing it though, mostly because of the discomfort at the end. And honestly, I just really like having my body back to myself and not having a sensitive part of me being sucked on regularly.

– He’s been sleeping better lately, except for the past few nights when he’s been fighting a cold. So far he’s gone back down pretty easily (KNOCK ON WOOD) when I go in and snuggle him in the dark and he immediately settles down and goes to sleep and goes down easily, just like he used to before the phase where he didn’t. I don’t dread him waking up nearly as much when I know it’ll be just a matter of settling him down and leaving easily. Of course, today he finally seems to have come down with the cold he’s been fighting so we’ll see if it’s that easy tonight since he was so clingy during the day.

– So yeah, he’s sick. He’s been acting off the past few days. Last Thursday (today’s Tuesday, so 5 days ago) he was okay until dinnertime when he refused dinner and then puked shortly afterwards, but then perked p and ate some applesauce and cheerios for dinner and went to bed fine. He was fine except for his eating the next day and slept fine. Then he refused dinner again (and it was pizza, his favourite!) and spiked a fever of 102.4, which came down after some meds and hasn’t come back. The past two nights he’s been waking up coughing usually and then goes back down as described above, which made me wonder if he actually was sick or if it was teeth. Usually when he’s sick and feeling bad, he refuses to sleep on his own and I go crazy. Anyway, so this morning he was still laying down when I went in and he just held his hands out to me and then put his head on my shoulder and stayed that way. (putting his head down isn’t unusual since it’s the way he hugs and he does it when he gets tired, but staying that way for a while is weird). He was really quiet and when I put him on his change pad to change him, he put his arms behind his head and closed his eyes. Usually he’s chattering and laughing and being silly. And when I put him on the ground, he just put his head down and closed his eyes. Husband stayed with him while I went in the shower (our usual routine when he’s around) and I had brought him some water to see if he’d drink anything and he had drunk the whole sippy by the time I got out of the shower, which is maybe 15 minutes. And then he drank another half when we came downstairs. He seemed to perk up then and ate some Cheerios. He was really whiney and clingy all day and he took a nap on me (he hasn’t taken a nap in months, except when he was sick over Christmas) and was very insistent in being ready for one. We ran out to the store to pick up more meds and he was cheerful for that, though he got whiney again a while later when he got tired. He went down for bed easily and although he’s coughed once or twice, he hasn’t woken up or cried. Yet. I got him one of those homeopathic cold syrups that are okay for young babies, hoping that it might help him sleep better. I’m iffy on one of the ingredients (the belladonna) but if it works I’ll get over it. I haven’t been sleeping well because I’m so sure he’s going to wake up every time he makes a noise that I’m not falling asleep and I’m on high alert so I’m jolting awake all the time.

– He’s suddenly in love with a book that he got for Christmas (and we had it out from the library a while ago). It’s a book of rhyming couplets about cats, illustrating opposites (“This cat is big, this cat is small, this cat is short, this cat is tall”) and right now it’s the only book he will sit and listen to and he constantly asks for it, and wants it read multiple times. There’s one cat who looks like ours and the first time he reacted to the book, he ran over to pat it and made very excited noises. Now when you’re reading it, you can see him looking at each picture. He always leans in to have his head kissed at the cat who is sad and the cat who has a cold. The other day I asked Husband if he would read it to him (we read it twice before bed now) and he raced over to it, picked it up and held it out to me and then Husband saying, “mama? dada?” When we finish, he closes the book, flips it over, smacks his hands on the cover and says, “Yeah!”

– FrostedBaby had started to climb the stairs finally and thought it was the greatest thing ever. All I had to do was say, “let’s go upstairs!” and he’d come running from whatever he was doing and climb them. We even had to gate them so prevent him from just going up on his own (not a problem as far as safety is concerned, just a matter of knowing where he is). Then one time on his like third day doing it, he slipped a bit on a stair and has been afraid to go up them ever since. Sometimes I can get him to go one or two steps, but mostly he whines and cries and tries to turn around so he can convince me to pick him up. This lends support to my thought that he doesn’t walk yet because he’s just too nervous to. If he stumbles even a tiny bit, not even falling, he cries like he he’s taken a huge fall. It doesn’t last long and I’m not sure if it’s fear or maybe at least partly some frustration that he can’t do what he wants to do, but he’s definitely nervous about it. He’s just recently started really wanting to walk around while holding onto my hands, but if I have him hold my fingers and don’t curl the others around to touch his hands, he gets scared and stops moving. He thinks that I’m doing the holding him up, even though he’s the one holding onto me and keeping himself up. Sometimes I think I’m literally going to have to walk him down the aisle at his wedding. Though at least I won’t have to breastfeed him before like I was afraid of for a while 😉

stupid WordPress

I keep posting something and then it says it’s posting but then it’s not there. So either I’m posting the same thing more than once, or it’s not posting at all. I’m hesitant to write much more in case something’s going on and it won’t post properly. So I’ll see if it shows up tomorrow and then hopefully post something more up to date.


It keeps telling me I’m not authorized to post when I try, seeing if this will work.