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Archive for November, 2011

12 weeks 2 days

I wrote this for my other journal last night so I’m cutting and pasting and then I’ll do an update.

FrostedBaby just went to bed and I’m waiting a few minutes while I get a snack to make sure he’s down for real — sometimes he wakes up shortly after if I’ve jumped the gun a bit, although he was really tired and barely opened his eyes when I put him in his crib so I think he is down.

He has suddenly changed a lot over the last week. He’s started talking more, with lots of oohs and aahs and goos and gahs. That happened about a week or less ago, I think it is. He likes it if I copy him back, he’ll laugh or smile, especially if I do the inhalation he does in between his “words”. It’s funny because sometimes he’s very quiet and other times he’s talking up a storm. I’m not sure exactly why, but I do notice that he’ll suddenly get very tired afterwards. Whether he starts because he’s tired and it has something to do with that, or whether it makes him tired, I’m not sure.

He seems to have tons of energy (waving and kicking and talking and being silly) and then suddenly he’ll crash, sort of like a kitten. We were upstairs folding laundry and he was being all energetic, then suddenly he started talking in a different way, and I brought him down to feed and he was out in a few minutes.

The other thing that’s a new development is the use of his hands. He actually started reaching for things yesterday and today he’s reaching and grabbing. Not in a really coordinated way yet, but in a more purposeful way than he was before. He’s not very good at holding things yet – he often doesn’t wrap his thumb around things and then drops them right away, and when he does get his thumb in a proper grasp, he’ll open his hand again shortly after and drop it. Or in the case of the set of toys on a ring I gave him earlier (during the laundry folding), he’ll hold it and get excited and wave his arms up and down and FLING it away. I’m wondering if he’s left handed (something I’m paying attention to since Rob’s left handed) since that’s the hand he seems to have the most coordination in so far, it’s the one he reaches with, it’s the one that grabs things more when he’s purposely doing it. It’s probably too early to tell anyway.

He’s so fascinating, with the way he changes every day. We got a Bumbo from a friend last Saturday when we put him in it his head was very bobby and while he has good head and neck control, I wouldn’t have left him alone at all because it would suddenly fall forward or backward. Today I put him in and he had improved so much that I would feel okay not always having a hand behind his head just in case. His head control is so much better that Rob’s parents aren’t afraid of holding him anymore, which is really nice.

He hates tummy time and so I haven’t been doing it as much as I probably “should”. It sometimes makes him go from happy baby to cranky baby, so unless I feel that he’ll tolerate it for a bit longer, I don’t bother. He’s forming his neck muscles with other stuff and I try to at least recline a bit with him on me so he’s getting some challenges. He’ll figure it out, it just might be a bit longer, but quite honestly I think that once he’s strong enough to be mobile, he’ll be going nonstop, so if I get a little bit longer of the easy stuff, that’s okay with me 😉 He has been more tolerant of tummy time lately and will even smile when he’s on it, though he does a lot more hand sucking than he does lifting his head. And he tends to kick his feet and try to get his legs under him more than anything. He’ll probably crawl like a wheelbarrow 😛

We were in Wasaga this weekend visiting for Christmas (since his parents are leaving for Florida in about two weeks). They haven’t seen him since Thanksgiving weekend so he’s changed a lot. As I said before, his head control is a lot better (though it’s always been decent for his age), he’s laughing and smiling, etc. They were thrilled to have him there and see how he’s changed.

I was wanting to get a travel playpen or something along those lines since he’s outgrowing the bassinette and it’s sort of big to travel with and all. We went to a consignment shop in the area that didn’t have what we were looking for and then we were in Walmart for something else, so we popped into the baby section to check out what was there and how much they were… and we found one for much cheaper than I’d expected so his parents bought if for us for Christmas. It’ll last him until he’s old enough for a big boy bed, I think, and it sets up and down easily. He didn’t sleep as well in it (only 6 hours straight before waking up) but it was the same as the bassinette and his routine was all thrown off so that could have been it. After we got home yesterday he went to bed really fast and slept for 9 hours, then slept for another 5 😛

He loves it when he’s laying on his back and I cover him up with a flannelette blanket thing, he likes to flip it off his face. He even gets his hands up as it’s coming down so he can flip it off faster and then he grins and laughs and looks very proud of himself. So cute. I know one day I’ll miss the days when that’s the greatest game in the world 😉 Oh, and when I’m the funniest person in the world.

He’s definitely asleep so I’m off to bed as well. I’m tired and headachey tonight, probably from not sleeping well last night. He sleeps great at night but doesn’t sleep much during the day so I don’t get a chance to nap so by this time I’m really tired.

And then I got ready for bed just in time for him to wake up at 10:30 (an hour after I put him down). Fed him, he fell asleep, I put him down… and he was awake at 2:00 (I changed him into a warmer sleeper, wondering if he was cold and that’s why he was waking up so much), then 5:30 (fed him in bed so we both dozed off at some point), then 7:30 (again in bed), and then he woke up as I got up at 9:30. Strange. Well, for him it’s strange. For other babies that I know that are his age, it’s still pretty good. I hope it’s not a phase. The good part is that my boobs never got super full and painful and leaky.

He seems to have improved his hand coordination overnight. Still not exactly sure he knows what he’s doing, but he’ll open his hand and wrap it properly around his stick toy  and can hang on to it longer, even when he’s excited and is waving it around. He sometimes tries to get it into his mouth too, which at least shows he knows he’s holding something. He seemed like he was trying to sit up too, when I had him laying on the nursing pillow… he kept trying to lift his head up. Not sure if he was trying to make his mouth go to the toy, or if he was wanting to look at his feet (he does a lot of that in the car seat, plus grabbing his blanket and moving it around), or what. Interesting. He is still definitely more coordinated with his left hand, though I’ve started putting the toy in his right hand to see if it’s a preference or if I was doing it more on the left for some reason and it’s just lagging behind because of that.


10 weeks 6 days

I swear we’re having the 3 month growth spurt a little bit early. He’s still sleeping really well at night (10.5 hours last night! I was in and out of sleep for like three hours waiting for him to wake up to relieve the pressure in my boobs, I kept expecting him to wake up so I didn’t want to bother with pumping), but he’s been cranky and his sleeping is sporadic during the day – sometimes he barely sleeps at all, sometimes he sleeps a lot, sometimes it’s a more typical pattern for him. He’s been eating a lot too, which is the big clue. It seems like he finishes eating and he’s fine for 10 minutes and he wants to eat again. It’s driving me crazy because he’ll eat and eat and then he’ll finish and then he wants more in just a few minutes later. I know that you can never really be empty unless you have supply issues, but I feel like I’m totally empty (except when I’m so full it’s painful from overnight). He’s still getting lots and I can feel the other side let down even if I’ve just finished feeding him on that side. A happy medium would be nice!

The worst part is that I’m hungry all the time too and can’t seem to get a chance to keep myself fed properly. I’m not just nibbly either – I feel like I could eat several full meals a day.

Part of his crankiness is being tired but… I’m not even sure what the issue is. He can’t turn his brain off to sleep? He’s just overwhelmed by stuff? He needs some help to calm down? In any case, for a few days early last week he would go straight to screaming at the drop of a hat. At first it frustrated me because I tried a whole bunch of things and nothing worked. Then I realized that he was just tired and I found that snuggling him and just waiting it out worked a lot better. I’ve found that if I hold him in a cradle position like I’m breastfeeding him, he calms down almost immediately and goes to sleep pretty quickly or at least stops his screaming. The only problem with finding that perfect thing that stops the screaming is that you’re then afraid to put him down, and you’re afraid that that perfect thing is going to change and he’s going to start again.

At the very least, we’re nearing the 3 month mark, which is when a lot of the evening crankies are supposed to clear up. It’s not that he’s a bad baby or is even half as bad as many kids, he’s not at all… it’s just that having your happy easy-going baby turn into cranky fussy baby and only want to be walked around and all, right when you’re tired and ready for a break after a day of entertaining him makes you start to dread evenings after a while. Some are better than others, and interestingly enough he’s worse when my husband is around. I don’t know why. He likes Daddy and is happy with Daddy, but when Daddy’s away there are many less fussy cranky evenings. I’m not sure what would make the difference.

I’m trying to recall if he’s doing anything new over the past week. He started drooling and blowing bubbles a bit recently. He also seems to be trying to move his hands towards things, maybe to grab them, but he’s not very good at it and usually just ends up hitting them. I can’t decide if it’s totally on purpose or not, but usually stuff near his face he takes a swipe at. We got a Bumbo from our friend who’s given us a bunch of stuff (she was using it for her youngest, who is now more interested in climbing out of it than sitting in it) last night and he seems to like sitting in it for short periods of time. We’ve only tried it a few times, but it at least seems to be a bit of a novelty. We’re getting to the point where he gets bored, but can’t really do too much yet since he doesn’t have control of his hands or anything, so I’m finding it hard to find stuff to entertain him around here. Walking and looking at the same stuff gets boring really fast 😛 During the day it’s not so bad because we can get out and he even loves grocery shopping because he likes looking at all the stuff on the shelves, but in the evenings when he’s the fussiest it’s harder.

I feel like I have other stuff to say but I’m not coming up with anything interesting.